Tuesday, August 31, 2004

~ Went To Bed At 11:00 p.m.! ~

It is now 4:45 a.m. September 1st, but it's true, I went to bed at 11 p.m. 08/31. RARE. I knew that I would wake up in a couple hours like I normally do, but this time I woke up at 3 a.m. Started playing some online Blackjack and then Ferris Bueller's Day Off started up on TNT. Who doesn't love that movie? One of the best. Unfortunately, the version I am watching is edited for television.

Nothing much happened today. I was lazy, and also typically sweating/too hot to do anything. I did not really talk to anyone today. I didn't really feel down or anything, just one of those "don't mind being a lone days".

I watched about three minutes of a new show on
NBC called, "Father Of The Pride". I wanted to see a second of it because when I heard about it I found it VERY disturbing. It's animated for one, and secondly the characters are Siegfred and Roy, and talking animals. Not normal animals, they are all dysfunctional in some way. Well, okay NORMAL, but not what Walt Disney would consider normal for cute furry animals. I have no doubt that this show will tank, but from what I understand they are dumping an extreme amount of $$$ into each episode. Over a million just to animate the sucker. Adding S&R into the mix is completely bizarre especially since Roy was recently mauled and now practically paralyzed.

Surreal Life 3 starts on September 5th, 10 p.m. on VH1. House guests include: Bridgitte Nielson (I used to think she was beautiful), ex-wife of Sylvester Stallone and Actress; Flava Flav, rapper from Public Enemy; Jordan Knight, New Kinds On The Block; Ryan Starr, American Idol Loser; Dave Coulier, Actor/Comic, Full House; and Charo, the Queen of "cuchi-cuchi".

I never watched the first one, and I saw maybe two or three episodes of the 2nd one, but this sounds like a hoot.

The Real World Philadelphia starts on September, 10 p.m., MTV. This is the 15th year of The Real World. The first "reality" tv show. Believe it or not, I have NEVER watch ANY Real World's in their entirety.

Labor Day. September 6th, 8 p.m. on
A&E? The Riverman. It will be a tv movie and guess who is in it? CARY ELWES. Ah Cary. Love him. I love how he has been playing nothing but creepy parts lately. Get this, in this movie he plays Ted Bundy! That is a long way from being Westley.

I do not have much to say about the
RNC because 1) I am no longer a Repub, I am Green and/or Independent. 2) I no longer support Bush or any of his other henchmen, 3) There are TONS of political blogs out there who know what they are talking about ad nauseam, and 4) I like to understand some politics, but don't care to talk about them much. I have my views, I vote, I am a concerned citizen, so I believe I am doing my part.

Monday, August 30, 2004

~ Avian Love ~

Today was a sad, morose day for me. A good friend of mine, her Mother passed away this weekend after a long (three year) cancer battle. She called me this morning to tell me the news. I feel for her. My Father passed away in April of 2000. I will discuss how and all the particulars another time. Anyway, obviously I am sad for her and her family. It also reminded me of my own loss and today was a day to grieve for the dead, and dare I say, to celebrate existing life. I am very appreciative for what I have in my life.

If there is any good to all of this, her family is close(r) and her Mother is finally out of pain. I hope she is another plane that is eternally blissful. She has my condolenses.





Got out of the house today, it was beautiful. It has been very hot the past several days. With my perimeno going on, it's tough on me because internally I am SO warm. I even had to put the air on even though my top was down on my convertible! I don't turn on the AC, I'd feel too guilty (yes, I am green), but I need to have something blowing ON me to regulate my temperature. I also use my Pokemon hand fan.

Drove around in
the convertible and at the end of the day I had an appointment for Kabuki, my Eclectus Parrot. He was born October 2000. I bought him around February/March 2001 time frame. He had his first checkup year 2002, so he was due for his 2nd. Actually, I am a year behind (they should be annual) but he has been very healthy and I take VERY good care of him. I swear, he eats better food than I do. Harrison's Organic Pellets, organic nuts, sprouts, veggies and fruit. He is absolutely beautiful. His health shows through his feathers. Look for yourself.


Meow! Salsa!


Clean bill of health for the 'buki! He also had his nail, beak, and wings trimmed. Mommie thanks the Doc for that since it kills my hands/arms and when I get bit). My Avian Vet is just the nicest man. Very gentle and caring. I highly recommend him and the Clinic if you are in need of an Avian DVM. West Valley Pet Clinic in San Jose, Dr. Timothy Govers, (408) 996-1155.

After the Vet, went to Happi House with my good ol' 2 for 1 coupon, I just love their chicken salad.



Disaster #1


Decided to watch AIRPORT 1975 tonight. I remember seeing all those 70's disaster movies when I was a kid. Funny to watch them now. So many stars were in this movie, I am sure no names at the time. Erik Estrada was in it as a co-pilot. He bit the big one though, poor dude.



Disaster #2


Ooh, just finished, AIRPORT 1977 is on now! What a treat! Jack Lemmon is in this one. I liked him, great actor. Sad that he passed in 2001. Jimmy Stewart is in this one as well, definitely a fave actor of mine. How could he not be? And while all of this is going on, I am watching Stargate SG 1 in the PIP (picture in picture) screen. Ah, Michael Shanks, but I've already mentioned my fancy for him here. I missed him this weekend (as I am sure he missed me), he was at the Stargate SG 1 Convention in Sacramento. TR met and partied with him not too long ago, so maybe one day I will meet him, maybe. lol (TR told me that he is married to an Asian woman, so all is lost. :( I am half Japanese / half Swedish, Shanks is missing out. I am subservient and I can massage!)

I have been IMing with an old date of mine (from last year around July time frame). Something weird is happening. He seems to be interested in me again. We have been friends since we stopped seeing each other, that was never an issue, but he seemingly has renewed his interest in me. I think he is a good man, so we will see what happens. I am open to going out, but I am honestly not into anything big. Too soon for anything like that. It will take a lot to impress me again after what I just went through (regardless whether it's with C or PB) so, like I said, we'll see what happens. Just taking one day at a time. With C contacting me last week, it royally messed me up (i.e. set me back) so having a nice diversion is a good thing. If something becomes of it, well, lucky me!

I also had a very nice IM with KK last night, so again, when it rain it pours! I do not want to take anything seriously right now, still just moving through my emotions and letting it flow naturally, but it does feel nice to have people say nice things about you when you feel like
tar at the bottom of a pit.

I will probably edit my
Match profile tomorrow. We'll see what type of gents will contact me. It's always a ton of fun and I will be sure to share the choice ones.

This is just too funny:
The Spam Love Story.

Tuesday, August 24, 2004

~ What Is UP With The Olympic Judging? ~

Watching male gymnastics again (Olympics). Russian Alexi Nemov, uh hot baby. SIX releases, received a 9.725, the lowest score! The crowd went absolutely ape shit for 10 minutes. Totally unheard of, but I don't EVEN blame them.

The Malaysian and Canadian judge scored 9.6 and 9.65, respectively. They changed their scores due to the outburst, so Nemov received a revised score of 9.762. What a crock of shit! He did not even get a metal! I am amazed.

Paul Hamm looks like someone I used to date (TF). TF broke things off with me in an E-MAIL on VALENTINE'S DAY in 2003. Needless to say, it doesn't bode well for Hamm. I don't care if he is our awesome USA gymnast. He really did not impress me. He scored a 9.812 and his performance wasn't even that impressive. He did not do more technical moves than Nemov or Cassina, WTF? The audience booed upon sight of his score and again, I don't blame them!



Igor Cassina of Italy



Igor, let me rub your hump!



Igor Cassina from Italy is HOT. Too bad I can't really find a picture of his face. I realize the picture of him falling isn't very flattering to his skills, but damn, look at his bod! LOL I like that picture, very artistic in its way. When I watched Igor perform he did two twisted releases and scored 9.812. He tied with Paul Hamm. I was appalled. No one else did what he did and he wasn't even rewarded for it!

I can't blog about this any more, I am too disgusted. UPDATE: After watching the rest of the Olympics and with all the mis-judging, doping scandals, etc. I got so turned off I stopped watching. I did not watch the last three days and I barely paid attention to the closing ceremonies. I thought it was boring and certainly not as inventive as the opening ceremonies. At least the joint was finally put out.



Monday, August 23, 2004

~ I, Period ~

Aunt Flow is in town. At least she is nicer than she was before. I am trying to get my sleeping schedule back to "normal," whatever that means. I have been going to bed around 11 p.m., but I always wake up about three to four hours later, it never fails. It's rare that I can get eight/nine hours of sleep in one fall swoop without the aid of some sleeping medicine or anything else that makes me tired (Karen loves her SOMA).



Save a Life, Wear A Patch


I feel PMS-y, blah. My new birth control pills though are doing a much better job than The Patch. I liked The Patch, but it gave me a "hormone mask" and I had killer slaughterhouse periods. You still with me boys? So, Ortho-Novum 1/35 is the way to go ladies!

Went to Trader Joe's to buy my beloved cottage cheese and fresh blueberries. Since my breakup, it's really the only thing that appeals to me. Yes, I am dizzy, lethargic, and all that other happy stuff, but I just can't force the eating issue. I am simply not hungry for long periods of time. I am gaining back the weight that I lost so I dunno, I don't get it! Eating less, but gaining? Another choice 37 year old moment I suppose.

Washed all my bed stuff. I usually do it every two weeks. Is that good or gross? I love freshly washed sheets, linens. It smells so good and is crispy. Like bacon!


Sweet Juicy Goodness!


Peaches and Asian Apple Pears, oh my! We have both of these trees in our yard and they are in full bloom. I have been eating as many as I can since it is a race between the squirrels and I.

Saturday, August 21, 2004

~ Wal-Mart Land ~

Went to Wal-Mart around 9 p.m. They close at 11 p.m. (!!) I had no idea that they closed that late. I figured they closed around 10 p.m. I've only been to Wal-Mart a handful of times so bear with me. I am a Target girl really. Call me a snob, but I find Wal-Mart to be fairly "junky". The clothes are cheaply made and ugly. Target? They have NICE stuff and it doesn't fall apart as soon as you wash it.



There was product everywhere and the worse part about it, I was amazed as to how many young children there were! It was like a pre-school bus parked out in front and let all the children out. What are these parents thinking? Okay, I am single with no children so perhaps there is some parental code that I am not aware of, but I'm trying to be reasonable here.....should they not be in bed?! I even overheard one Mother say, "Now, after we get something to eat...."......dude, it was 11 p.m.!

Whatever, I was happy. I bought a new Honeywell Super Turbo High Performance Fan for $7.00, it's all good.

Friday, August 20, 2004

~ Last Shot ~

Went to Planned Parenthood today. I was too late for a pap, so I just had my last Hep B shot administered. You have to have three shots spaced out every three months (I believe) and then you are set for life. I am all done!

Made an appointment for the pap in early September. FOR THE LADIES: This is your reminder, make your appointment!

Went to Happi House, used my usual 2 for 1 coupon. I realized I have mentioned Happi House many times. Yes, I like their food and go there quite a bit (ah, say once a week), but I do not live there! I do frequent many other restaurants, especially sushi. I love all types of food. I am not overly picky when it comes to my dining needs. I do not eat much red meat, but I love fish, poultry, veggies, and fruit. I do fast food occasionally, but I really like to eat healthy. I have high cholesterol so I have to be careful with the fatty foods. Although...


The ONLY Food that Matters



Thursday, August 19, 2004

~ Moveable Type ~

Read a bunch of blogs today on Blogger. I found some great stuff this time around. When I get it together I will list the blogs I like in a Blog Ring on my left side bar. Hopefully they will read my blog, like it and return the favor.

Downloaded Movable Type. I am going to use it on my web site, THE LATENESS OF THE HOUR. Good heavens though, the instructions are crazy wicked. I hope everything will go smoothly.

Woke up at 5 p.m. today! SO LATE. I really prefer to wake up around 12:30/1 p.m. That suits me best, but when I have my insomnia, depression, and heartbroken-ness, it all goes to hell in a hand basket.

Watched woman's gymnastics, Romania won gold. USA silver, Russia bronze.

ZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz, sorry, boring blog, not feelin' it.

Wednesday, August 18, 2004

~ Allow Me To Bore You ~

Not much going on today. I have been IMing with KK, but still, no excitement is there. I am not trying to compare KK with C, but I want the excitement that I had with C. It was just this unbridled energy that I haven't felt in a long time. That "honeymoon period" feeling? That euphoria? I love that (as I am sure we all do).

I ran out of my Fluoxetine. Normally I am with it on the online med ordering, but it just slipped me this time. Did a search for cheaper pricing and found a great site that dispenses meds without a prescription, and the meds come from Mexico. There is a two week wait for it, but the cost is really low, the best I have seen. UPDATE: The meds did take two weeks to arrive, but they are excellent quality and I am very happy with my purchase. The Fluoxetine was actually from PA! They did not dispense another med order to the quantity that I ordered so I sent them an e-mail and they got right on it. Sending me out what I need. It will still take two weeks, but at least their Customer Service was fast and reliable. I recommend this site.

I do NOT recommend this site, they are crooks! They actually run a couple of different sites, but you will recognize them with their "$19.95 Non-Refundable Processing Fee" and free gifts (that never come). NEVER, EVER pay for a "non-refundable processing fee" it's a load of crap. What is the "fee" for? To CALL your Doctor or if you don't have one to have a licensed clinician call you, which by the way they never did. I do not even want to get started with this company. I called my credit card and had the $19.95 charge retracted. Which they did with no problems. Consider yourself warned.

Watched some Olympics. Amazed at the male (and of course female) gymnastics. The Japanese men rocked. They make it look so easy and it's not, not even close to easy! I did some gymnastics in my youth and I remember the double bars, balance beam, and trust me....these people are not human for being able to do what they do.

Tuesday, August 17, 2004

~ And Now A Word From Our Sponsor ~

My blog should receive money from corporations because I tout products, places, and items all the time. I will put my Amazon Wish List on my blog someday (My e-mail address is thelatenessofthehour@yahoo.com, you can put in my e-mail address on Amazon to look up my Wish List). Why not, I am just as materialistic as the next.

Hm, just visited Amazon and I do not see where you can ADD (the icon) your wish list on your web site/blog for others to visit. I've seen it many times on other web sites so I know it can be done, am I missing something here? I am not talking about the "Share The Love" program (I will do that as well), but the icon for your Wish List. Any clues would be appreciated.

Back to the products I wanted to mention. I absolutely LOVE
Trader Joe's. I believe TJ's is only located in California, so if you are not in the know, TJ's is a grocery store. They do not advertise and they purchase their products from all over the world in bulk so they are able to charge a lot less than a regular supermarket. Their packaging is fun and innovative and mostly organic, healthy. Tom's of Maine toothpaste is sold nearly everywhere, but TJ's charges less. I LOVE this toothpaste. If I do not use Tom's, I consider myself a Colgate fan. The Peppermint flavor is my choice for Tom's and I love it because it tastes REAL, not fake. They even call it "natural". Hard to describe what "not fake" is, but it doesn't taste like toothpaste. If that made any sense, lol. It doesn't have all that crap/fake stuff that other major toothpaste brands have. Try it, you'll see what I mean. Another thing? I haven't have a cavity in YEARS since I started using Tom's (and Colgate). I have a major sweet tooth and I brush my teeth at least three times a day, but still, I did those things in the past and got cavities so who knows? Maybe it's because my teeth are all filled or have crowns, but hey, whatever, eh?


Oh Yeah! Limeade Rocks!


Odwalla. I LOVE Odwalla. Even their web site makes me happy! I have loved Odwalla since the very beginning when it all started in Davenport, California. Now it is a huge company and I believe the manufacturing plant is somewhere around Fresno, California. I love Mo Beta, the Tangerine juice, ah everything. My latest crush? Limeade! OOH, I LOVE IT. For some reason I have been on a lime kick and have been searching for real/semi-real limeade and I found it in Odwalla. Fresh, refreshing, crisp, just awesome. It is a summer seasonal though, so get it while it's hot!

I remember telling someone years ago right when Odwalla was going public to purchase their stock because they were going to be big. Well, of course the stock did not open well and then people got sick from their product not being pasturized so the stock tanked (sales plunged 90%, stock plunged 34%). Haven't checked how they are doing lately, but I imagine they have since recovered and are doing well. FLASH: I just checked ODWA on NASDAQ, no where to be found. I can't even find their new trading symbol. I take it they are not longer public? Wow. Well whatever, I love their drinks, so drink up at your own risk!

I have a new (hobby?) addiction, we'll see how long this one lasts for me. Online games. I have always loved
video, strategy, simulation, multi-player, online games, but my interest comes and goes. I mean, its not like I fall out of love with the games, my interest just wanes/waxes or I get bored. I am not easily bored so I am not a fickle person when it comes to my obsessions. As a matter of fact, I have been stalking the same man for years! j/k

I have been playing
Hearts, Phlinx, Squelchies (has an annoying little kid voice audio), Mahjong Garden, Buckaroo Blackjack, and Texas Hold Em Poker on AOL (Pogo Games). I enter the daily contest everyday (prize $50), the weekly and the monthly. I forgot what the dollar amount for weekly is, but monthly is $250. Plus, they have a contest for appliances and things like that. Not bad considering I have a 30-day free trial and then it's $2.99/month after that or $19.95/year.

I never knew how to play
Poker before so practicing with "robots" and reading how to play I learned in a jiff. I LOVE IT. I am sure that if I played in Vegas it would be a different story, but for now it's fun playing with other people online. I have also been watching Celebrity Poker Showdown on Bravo and THAT is a ton of fun to watch. Funny how you can win a game by lying or having a "poker face". Perfect game to teach the kids!


Monday, August 16, 2004

~ Procrastination ~



I have so many things I need to do. With my current state of brokenheartedness, I haven't done sh!t in nearly a month.

The most important thing, keep submitting my resume for a job. I have not worked on at all in a month. My goal is to start up again this week. I believe I forgot to mention it, but Todd did come through with a $1,000, so that is why I haven't been so Johnnette On The Spot about the job situation because it's amazing how far I can stretch that money out.

I need to sell my convertible. I had it on
Craig's List, but it has since expired. I also have to consider posting it on say something like, AutoTrader.com and, ugh....eBay. I really want to try and sell it on my own first, pay NO listing fees nor have ANY commission taken out. Wish me luck.

I need to go to Planned Parenthood. I have to finish my last Hep B vaccine shot (you have to do a series of three) and also get a pap smear. My fave. Since I currently do not have any health insurance (I know BAD), PP has been heaven sent for me. I am very thankful for their services.

I am not going to get into this because this is far too personal, but I am having a battle with the ultimate worst......the I.R.S. Enough said, believe me, STRESS CITY.

Started taking Estro Natural, A
Walgreen's product based off of Estroven Extra Strength. Hopefully this product will help me with my hot flashes. Apparently "Black Cohosh Extract" is the wonder herb when it comes to this type of situation. I do not know what it is, but it was in every box of "peri/menopause" type of remedy that Walgreen's had. I will do some research on it and report in another blog listing.

Other than that, no new news or happenings. I am bored, procrastinating, unmotivated, and well, feeling like a loser. Other than that, I still have my positive attitude.

Sunday, August 15, 2004

~ Ouch, My Feet Have Blisters! ~

I miss Los Gatos. I used to live there many years ago by myself, in two different places. The first place was SO small, 400 square feet. It was all that I could afford at the time on my salary and driving a brand new MR2. I made the best of it, and I also mainly stayed at my boyfriend's house in the Santa Cruz Mountains. I loved waking up and having a bunch of deer right outside, very cool. Beautiful mountains and trees. Sigh. Yes, I miss it. Perhaps I will live there one day again.

EW wanted to go to the Los Gatos Art & Wine Festival on Main Street. I was all for it. We planned on going the day before, but we ran late (as usual), so we made the attempt today. Of course we were late again, but we managed to catch at least 10 minutes of it. Nothing special. Overpriced brick-a-brac. I want a couple of new gold toe rings, and snagged the business card of the little toe ring store at the festival. I purchased from them before. I love my toe rings. I have about four of them and have been wearing them for many, many, many years. I think feet are ugly, but adding shiny gold toe rings on them seem to change them from BLAH To AH. Whatever. LOL

EW saw and spoke to one lad that she recognized. The funny thing though, she could not remember his name (they went out on a date once). Considering that EW has a name/face database in her head and can remember stuff beyond comprehension, I could not believe that she could not remember this dude's name. She called a friend to figure it out. Too funny.

Beyond that, nothing really exciting was going at the festival so we decided to walk, walk, and walk around Los Gatos (hence the painful blisters). The Town itself is not that large so you can walk the entire distance in a good hour or two. Nice walking workout. We stopped off at the Los Gatos Coffee Roasting Company and I picked up an iced mocha/banana coffee. Not bad, but not great. What is this? Strike two. Two coffee drinks in a weekend? Rare, and out of place for me. However, now I am on a quest. I am determined to find an awesome coffee drink. That's all I need, ANOTHER thing to keep me up at night!

Since the breakup, I have not been eating well. I'm not talking about eating junk food, I am talking about eating in general. I lost about seven pounds, and now I think I gained a couple back, but I am just not eating that often. I simply do not have an appetite. I think the hot days are affecting me as well. After EW and I parted ways, I was starving to death since I did not eat a thing all day, so I went to Happi House. Had a 2 for 1 coupon. I currently live with my Mother and we love our Happi House 2 for 1. The chicken salad? I love it. I usually purchase an extra pint.

I guess I have always been a coupon person, trying to be thrifty when I can, but overall I am not a cheapskate. Far from it. Not being able to control my finances put me in trouble in the past, and now in current time, so believe me, I am trying to bust out of this negative mold and be more conscious of my future. Right now, it's not looking so good. I feel like a loser. I never thought I would be in the position that I am in. All I can say is that I am due for something good. I thought my relationship with C was the start of a brand new future, new hope for me...but that was abruptly cut off without an explanation that I can even understand. Leaving me in the manner that he did, unforgettable and unforgivable.

I digress. Back to my Los Gatos story. Actually, this is probably a good time to tell you. I am a lot like the main character in CARRIE PILBY. I just finished that book and I connected with that character in a way I have never done before. It was as if I was reading about me. Very weird. Anyway, funny thing. I did a Google search on CARRIE PILBY because I wanted to see what else the author wrote and lo and behold! The Author, Caren Lissner, actually has a web site and moreover, a blog! LOL I'll give her some props on my blog, excellent book Caren! I will definitely read any other books you have.

Back to what I was trying to tell you...I usually think about three or four things at once. I always have. I start talking about one thing and switch to another thing. I am sure my blog is like that as well, in "scattered talk" so forgive me in advance if you are totally lost and do not know what the fuck I am talking about. Stay with me people! FOCUS.

Time to start a new book! Wouldn't you know? EW and I went to Border's in Los Gatos today. I picked up LIFE OF PI and THE LOVELY BONES. I have SO many books at home that I need to read, but I just can't help it. I love books, bookstores, and drum roll, spending money. Shopping is definitely mental therapy for me. Border's had a "Buy 1, Get the 2nd 50% Off" so WTF, I took the plunge. By the way, I know that I just mentioned I am trying to be careful about my money, and the truth is, I HAVE BEEN. So please, no advice mail about me buying two books. Honest, that is all that I have spent (besides the couple lipsticks on eBay).

Speaking of ex-boyfriends. I thought of one special ex, MT. I had a six-year relationship with him. He was 14 years older than me at the time. I was with him from my early 20's to about 28. I loved him, I loved him quite a bit. Although, even though I was with C for only two months, I loved C even more. Anyway, as I mentioned earlier, I did live with MT in the Santa Cruz Mountains. Beautiful three-story house. He had some serious bucks. Really, the only boyfriend that I have ever had that had some major $$$. That did not matter though, I loved him for who he was and how he treated me. He was a good man. I think it's sad that I haven't seen him in over 10 years. We talked a couple of years ago, a mutual friend of ours had died, but we did not meet up. We talked about it, but it never happened, and then I lost touch with him. The reason why I bring him up is because he had an office close to where EW lives. I was wondering if his office is still there. I want to look him up and say hi. Just so you know, we parted ways in good terms. I am SURE he would be completely surprised that I never married. Simple fact, no one ever asked nor would I have said yes. The only man I would have married in a heartbeat was C, but alas, that isn't going to happen.

Where are the older single men on Blogger? I swear, about 98% of the blogs that I read are either teens or students. No MEN. Well, there are some, but they are MARRIED. Where are the 28 - 40 yo SINGLE MEN? I would also have to bet that I am probably the only 37 yo SINGLE woman blogging on Blogger. Prove me wrong ladies!


I watched Bad Boys 2. What a piece that was. I wonder how many times they said the word "fuck", "nigga", "mother fucker", etc. You get the idea. It seriously must have been off the charts. I have Netflix so I ordered this film. Thank God because I would had been pissed if I had to pay $9.50 for it. Now, I am a reasonable individual. I can suspend my belief in movies, but the car chase scene they had was just SO over the top it was completely unreal. I am sure that if any cop in my city pulled that type of crap, they would not have an ass to sit on. Anyway, do not bother watching this movie, go mow your lawn instead.

My sleeping pattern is absolutely and completely screwed up. I wanted to try and get it together this week, but it's not happening. I will try soon. You are going to hear me talk A LOT about insomnia and poor sleeping habits so get used to it. That is what this blog is about, THE LATENESS OF THE HOUR. For now, I have been going to bed later and later and later. Today will be no different. I am going to bed at 7 a.m.

Just so you know usually from Thursday - Friday I do not write my blog in real time. Thank God for Blogger's "set your date and time to whatever you want you lazy bastard" feature. I am actually writing Sunday's blog on Wednesday, but hey no biggie since I've only had ~93 people look at my blog. I am working on building readership by doing all the "blog things" popular bloggers do, but no matter. I enjoy writing my thoughts out and the things that I did in the day. I like to spew venom and kiss out love. I used to do it in my journal(s) so I don't really see what the difference is except for the fact that my thoughts are public. I haven't lied, I am being real, but I am not putting it ALL out there, so it isn't a big deal to me. I am really not a private person anyway. My business is usually all out there. I have nothing to hide. Perhaps one day I will have a "secret blog", but ahhhhhhhhhhh, more work. LOL This blog is good enough for now. Ack, I am stopping here with this train of thought, I am boring myself.

I will have to mention KK in a future blog session. I am thinking about going out for a drink with him. Not sure yet. I am currently ambivalent about my entire dating situation. Men suck. But I still love them anyway.

I'll leave you all with this...

"Where is that perfect COFFEE dammit!?"




Saturday, August 14, 2004

~ Left The Bat Cave ~

Today was nice. EW dragged me out of the Bat Cave and we ended up doing quite a few things. It was very nice to be distracted for so long and not think about C and cry my eyes out. I actually had a nice time, laughed, and enjoyed just getting out. To boot, it was a beautiful California day.

We weren't completely sure what we wanted to do. We are both easy going, casual, on the fly type of individuals. I just don't stress about doing things. I love to do things
"on the fly". We decided to eat some dinner first, so I suggested Willow Street Cafe, the restaurant I went with CV not too long ago. However, this time I got it right and went to the Westgate location and was able to use my aforementioned 2 for 1 Entertainment card.

EW ate what I had the last time, and this time around I was in a MEAT mood, so I opted for the Three Sausages and Three Mushroom pizza. It was good, but not great (it actually gave me
smelly toots later, hee hee). As for them REALLY putting three different types of mushrooms on it, nah, don't believe it. All the mushrooms were tiny and looked like normal sliced white button mushrooms to me. There were supposed to be some portabella and shittake, nope, did not see any. Normally, I would have said something, but at the time it was not a big deal AND I did not feel like eating chef spit so I left it as is.

After dinner we went to
Old Navy, but I did not see anything that I liked. Normally, I would want to buy out the entire store. Good thing.

Next up was
Starbucks. I tried for the first time the: Frappuccino caramel coffee and creamy caramel blended with ice, topped with whipped cream and caramel sauce (however, it was the "lite" version). My advice? Skip the "lite" version and go full throttle. I rarely drink coffee so the next time I decide to treat myself I want to taste full pleasure going down and not this funky tasting medina.


"Eat Me"


We decided to see a movie at Century 22. Alien vs. Predator. It was okay. You can wait till it comes out on DVD. After reading the (bad) reviews on Rotten Tomatoes, I decided that had I directed the movie, I would have changed nearly the entire premise. I am tired of writing right now, but I will later post what I think that movie should have been about. Do not read it if you do not want to read spoilers.

Only until I was driving home did I think about C, and sigh, got sad. Better though, I lasted seven to eight hours in distracted bliss. Hey, I like that name, good name for another weblog or a band.



Thanks to: http://www.enlightenedbeings.com/samadhi_coaching.html for the borrowed image.

Friday, August 13, 2004

~ The Olympic Joint ~

2004 OLYMPICS - ATHENS, GREECE




CNN - Opening Night: http://www.cnn.com/2004/SPORT/08/13/olympics/

Okay, it can't just be me who thought the Athens Olympic torch lighting ceremony looked like a joint in a roach clip. Did you notice that as well? Look at the picture of the flame holder and tell me that does not look like a joint/roach clip!? And no, I am not a
stoner.

Hm. I have been searching for a picture (of the flame holder/joint) for the past half hour on Google and I can not find one! As a matter of fact, I can barely find ANY images from the opening ceremonies! Just a couple, but not even what I would consider the highlights. WEIRD. I wanted to find an image of that woman's glowing belly as well. Then it dawned on me....apparently this Olympic really isn't that big of a success (as so far). There are so many
empty seats in nearly every event that I have watched! Again, WEIRD. Is it because of potential terrorist threats? Poor PR from the Greeks because it took them so long to build?

This journalist from the Sun Times lists possibilities as to why the numbers for the Olympics are just not happening. Olympics on Tape Delay:
http://www.suntimes.com/output/roeper/cst-nws-roep17.html

Good heavens! After an hour of searching on Google, six pages in, I FINALLY found a picture of the Olympic Torch. Of course, it isn't that big and not in an angle that proves my point, but none the less, this picture is going to have to do for now. By the way, the only hitch in the opening ceremonies according to one of the news reporters was that the flame actually blew OUT a little while after it was lit! LOL I guess next time they have to go for a little Maui Wowie instead.


"Whoa dude! Let's go party in Greece!"





Thursday, August 12, 2004

~ Land Of The Lost Comes Alive ~



Laa Laa, a rare baby Francois' Langur monkey born July 6, gazes at the public from its enclosure at London Zoo on Wednesday, August 5, 2004.
(AP Photo/PA, Fiona Hanson)

Laa Laa reminds me of a Sleestak from
Land of The Lost.



~ Missed It ~

I was so tired last night I fell asleep around midnight. Unusual for me since for the past month I have been going to bed around 6 - 7 a.m. and waking up around 1 - 2, sometimes later. Being broken hearted sucks. For the first week I thought I was going to pull out of it, I was angry, I felt strong, and now...I feel incredibly sad, lost. Since I have not heard from C I am beginning to realize in full that the most incredible feeling I have ever felt in my life is gone. It took me over 10 years to find him, the loss and pain is severe.

Being that I fell asleep during the prime hours for the Perseid Meteor Shower, I missed it. That is upsetting. It is 5:37 a.m. PDT right now (as I write this), I went outside and the sun is just starting to rise. Absolutely no meteors can be seen (at least to the naked eye). I was under the impression that it would last till 6 a.m., but that could have been east coast time. I am a little out of it right now since I just woke up about half an hour ago, so forgive me if I do not reread articles to point out fact. I'm just not into it.

Wednesday, August 11, 2004

~ A Picture Of Me ~

In case you are wondering what I look like, take a peek and tell me what you think. Am I hot or not?

Source:
http://www.gfxartist.com/community/elite_galleries/artworks/59179
(Sorry if this link does not work, it was there (the picture in full) when I wrote this entry.)

~ I Wish I Could Draw ~

I am not really a "hobby" person per se. I do have many and a variety of interests, but there isn't one thing that I am especially good at. At least in my humble opinion. I am a bulldog in business with negotiating, but since it has been a while and I am not employed at the moment, that does not count. I am talking about personal stuff.

For instance, I can do a cart wheel, but I can't do a cart wheel on the reverse side. Wait, bad example because I am sure many can not even do a regular cart wheel. Okay, better example, I wish I could draw, but I can't draw to save my life. My
stick figures are cute and I can draw a Fizz Gig type of creature, but beyond that I would have to stick to my day job. Oh, wait...LOL

I guess my one true talent would be writing. The reason why I state this isn't because I am some
vain creature, but because I have had quite a few people tell me that I have a knack for writing. Mostly I write "Dear Crook" letters or pissed off e-mails to (ex) boyfriends, but I think I can modestly say that I have a keen sense of humor and offbeat type of writing style that I can agree with said complimentors.

I am far too lazy to write a book, just not in the cards nor do I even have the slightest interest, so my blog will have to do. I am creating a concept for my
http://www.thelatenessofthehour.com web site, but since I procrastinate like crazy, heaven only knows when I will actually flip that sucker live. It's currently live, but it only has a home page. Heck, it's not even a home, it's more like a closet without the lights on.

The reason why I bring all this up is because I keep finding the most amazing, but horrific images on the Internet. Funny, sad, complex, dramatic, bizarre, the adjectives are endless. I have a bizarre sense of humor and also I like looking at weird stuff. I don't get off on it sexually if that is what you are thinking (I don't even understand that train of thought), but I guess I am just curious as to how the mind works on every single person. The way YOU see life or what your version of life is.

For instance, what do you think was going through this artist's head while s/he was creating this image? Like the dolls, it is so offbeat and bizarre, but I can't help but look at it and think to myself, "Why can't I draw??"


Perhaps McDonald's should rethink
their new Chicken McNuggets w/white meat?



Tuesday, August 10, 2004

~ Can You Find EVERYTHING On The Internet? ~

I do believe I am the first person to NOT find something on the Internet. If you find it for me, I will eat my flip flop. I am looking for a picture of "The Leaving Dance" as performed by Meg Ryan's crazy woman character in the excellent movie RESTORATION.

You see, I feel like doing The Leaving Dance and I thought it would be appropriate to show you what it looks like. For now, I will leave you with Meg's crazy character and an image of the movie itself.


"Not the Safety Dance! The LEAVING Dance!"


I IMed with MO tonight. Sweet boy! I missed him, haven't talked to my pal in a long time. He sounds well, dating a new girlie, and I am glad that Incubus rocked hard for him last night.

I think I am going to start journaling (is that a word?) as to what my mood was for the day. I know I have my moods posted on the left bar of my blog, but just for my sake I would like to have some sort of record to see how long it takes for me to snap out of this funk that I am in since C broke up with me. It took me several years to get over MT and TR, and I sincerely hope that is not going to be the case here with C. I do not have that kind of time anymore, and more importantly I do not want to be in pain and despair any longer than I have too. I will grieve, I will move through my pain, and I will branch out again. No man is worth feeling terrible for when I believe he has made a regrettable mistake.

My mood changed today into something worse and I am bothered by it. Heard some news that should have been happy, but it did not strike me as such, more of deep concern. I have never felt this way before with this individual and I am not sure on what level why I am feeling this way. Something is not right. I am taken aback because this is not consistent behavior with this individual and admittedly, I am disappointed. We'll see what happens. I want everything to be fine and without any future heartache, I just hate it when I feel something like this in the core of my soul and it simply is not sitting well with me.

I have been on an
eBay kick again. When I get depressed I am one of those depression shoppers. It's an addiction for me that I have been working on for many years and actually have been VERY good at for the past four years. My control has been strong and I have been very proud of myself. I rarely, if ever, step into a mall and if I do I try to make sure that someone is with me.

However, I am cutting myself a little slack and turned to eBay for some relief. Since my funds are in limited supply these days, my purchases have been exceedingly small, mostly cosmetics, lipstick. Or, I will bid on something, but keep my bid very low and more than likely will be bidded out. It's just the act of me "shopping", finding something I like, the desire of wanting it, and then I am done with it. In past years it would have been a completely different outcome. I would have bought it no matter what the cost. Now, I don't even care anymore. I have changed so much in some things and in others, I feel hopeless.

There is a Perseid Meteor Shower
happening right now, I think I will go out and explore tonight and find a place where I can watch. I absolutely love Astronomy and yes, Astrology. Do I believe that there is life out there in the other galaxies? ABSOLUTELY!

I would love to sit down and have a conversation with
Prof. Stephen Hawking. Although his appearance and robot voice would freak me out a little bit, I am sure with the direction of the conversation and just the awe of his intellect I would swiftly be won over.



Monday, August 09, 2004

Sweet Dreams!


Is it just me or do you find this image to be a tad creepy?


Sunday, August 08, 2004

~ Happy Birthday Mrs. FF! ~

Today is RB's, oops, RF's birthday. Happy Birthday Hoochie Momma! First marriage, then a birthday, then a baby carriage?? :o)

I am going to have to get used to calling her RF from now on. It still trips me out that she is married. My hootchie married? Wow, too trippy. Recent 7/8/04. Beautiful
wedding and reception in Lake Tahoe. I had a wonderful time, it was heartfelt and I am very happy for her. Oh yes, her dress was absolutely fabulous, but forgot to view her shoes! And, THE RING! I will have to ask to see her Precious soon.

All I have to do is purchase their gift. Gotta get over to
Crate & Barrel and/or Macy's this week. I went shopping last Thursday with EW at Valley Fair specifically to purchase her gift, but of course we were late, had to eat dinner, buy make-up, eat Cold Stone (omg, Cake Batter!) and what was that I was supposed to buy? LOL

I am such a goober. I called RF tonight to wish her a Happy B'day and well, she was gracious enough to tell me that it wasn't until next month. D'oh! It's the perimenopause I'm telling you!! At least she knows that I am thinking about her. :o)

~ For now I dedicate these images to RF ~




Saturday, August 07, 2004

~ Change Of Life ~

I am bored. I need to change "things" in my life and I need to start now. With C and I no longer together, the excitement that I briefly felt is gone and has left me in a state of flux. I will talk about this further in other blogs.



Also, I do believe I have started to go through "The Change of Life". Yes, menopause. Sigh. I am only 37, so I do not think that it's actually menopause, but there is a condition called perimenopause. Guess what ladies? I found out that perimenopause can last up to SIX to TEN YEARS!!!! {faints} Yes, you read that right. Another reason for my somber mood. Middle age has finally hit me. I have listed the symptoms below and yep, I am pretty much suffering from ALL of them. I was spared no expense from the Meno Gods. The hot flashes are especially fun as I am currently walking around with a Japanese hand fan and during the day/night I have a white desk fan on me. I fear if I do not cool down I will melt like another certain woman we all know.


"Perimenopause is the period of gradual changes that lead into menopause. It affects a woman's hormones, body, and feelings. It can be a stop-start process that may take months or years. "Climacteric" is another word for the time when a woman passes from the reproductive to the non-reproductive years of her life".

Souce: Planned Parenthood


Here is a list of the symptoms (and further information on perimenopause/menopause:

As most women approach menopause, their menstrual periods become irregular - they happen closer together and/or further apart.

Other common symptoms include:

Achy joints, hot flashes, temporary and minor decrease in the ability to concentrate or recall, changes in sexual desire, extreme sweating, headaches, frequent urination, early wakening, vaginal dryness, mood changes, insomnia, night sweats, conditions commonly associated with PMS — premenstrual syndrome.

A woman may have one, some, or none of these symptoms. Symptoms can be very unpredictable and disturbing if a woman doesn't know they are related to menopause.

A woman's experiences during menopause may also be influenced by other life changes:


Children leaving home, changes in domestic, social, and personal relationships; changes in identity and body image, divorce or widowhood, retirement, increased anxiety about illness, aging, and death; loss of friends, loved ones, and financial security, increased responsibility for aging parents, anxiety about loss of independence, disability, or loneliness.

Increasing numbers of perimenopausal women also have young children to care for. Whatever the cause or circumstance, the conditions women experience before and after menopause are very real and sometimes need medical attention. While 10-15 percent of American women experience no symptoms of menopause, another 10-15 percent become physically or emotionally disabled for various periods of time by some of these symptoms of life changes. And all women face increased risk of heart disease and osteoporosis after menopause.

Perimenopause Is Unpredictable.

Perimenopause may begin as early as 35. It usually starts about two years earlier for women who smoke than for women who don't.

Women reach menopause at different times. The timing is not related to race, class, pregnancy, breastfeeding, fertility patterns, the birth control pill, height, age of menarche (first period), or age at last pregnancy.


SIGH...THE FUN BEGINS...

The above information was taken from: Planned Parenthood.

Friday, August 06, 2004

~ OPEN WATER ~

My friend CV rocks. She is the only person I keep in touch with from high school. Probably the only one I ever will, I will know her till the day I die. She is like a sister to me. Sometimes we don't talk for a while, but it never matters, as soon as we do it's like we have never been away from each other. We never even fight. We have a mature, healthy friendship. One that I deeply cherish. For a Taurus, she is all right. :) Okay, enough mushy stuff.

CV had two free passes to see a
Century Theater movie. Since we already saw "THE VILLAGE" the week before we decided on "OPEN WATER". Actually, I did. CV wanted to see "THE BOURNE SUPREMACY", but I already saw that with my friend EW. I also was not in the mood to see a movie right away and needed some more time to myself. Friday I was just not up to par, still feeling deep grief about C. It comes and goes, but this week it was bad. Since I had supressed most of my feelings the week before, it's starting to hit me now. More on this later.

CV was way cool, understood, and said "OPEN WATER" would be fine. I drove to her house, picked her up, and then we went to
Willow Street in Willow Glen for dinner. It was excellent!

I had: Vodka Prawn Fettuccine and a glass of the Meridian Chardonnay

Prawns, spinach, and oven dried tomatoes tossed with pine nuts, fresh basil, fettuccine and vodka tomato-cream sauce.

CV had: Wild Mushroom Pesto Penne and a glass of the Salmon Creek Merlot

Seasonal mushrooms, sun dried tomatoes tossed in a pesto cream sauce and garnished with toasted pine nuts and fresh basil.

I brought my Entertainment Card because I thought we could get a 2 for 1 dinner, but I goofed. It wasn't valid at that particular Willow Street (d'oh!).

Discount Description:
Enjoy one complimentary LUNCH OR DINNER ENTREE when a second LUNCH OR DINNER ENTREE of equal or greater value is purchased.

(Membership Card or Coupon provided in the Entertainment Book is required to obtain discount) Dine in only, valid anytime, Westgate location only.

Restaurant Information:
At Willow Street Westgate, you'll find the kind of wood-fired
pizza & specialty pastas that have made Willow Street a Bay Area tradition.
We also feature terrific salads, fresh fish, homemade desserts, our own World
Beer Cup winning microbrews & a full bar. At Willow Street, you'll find a
large, comfortable patio, perfect for private parties.


Oh well, next time CV and I will go to the one at Westgate (I would have a link here for Westgate Mall, but I searched high and low on the 'net and there is nothing to be found on this mall. Absolutely no web site. It's located in Campbell, California. If you find it, please tell me!).

Back to OPEN WATER. What did I think about it? I thought it was good, not great, but it certainly had me thinking during and after the movie about their predicament. I am still thinking about it. Since I do not want to ruin it for you if you have not seen it, I cannot comment too much, but I agree with pretty much all the positive reviews on Rotten Tomatoes. Take a peek: OPEN WATER REVIEWS




My only beef with the movie is that it was filmed on DV, digital video. Ugh. Poor quality, drove me nuts. Too fuzzy for me. Apparently they shot the entire film for $130,000 USD, so hey, what do you expect? TR paid MORE than that for KWOON, but that is another story (read blog date August 5, 2004).

~ Amazing Grace ~

Can you believe it? Todd deposited a $1,000 into my account. Thanks Todd. We'll see how hard getting the next $$$ will be. Stay tuned.


Thursday, August 05, 2004

~ Thank You Blogger Support! ~

I received this message from Blogger Support today:

Hi there,

Unfortunately we don't provide support for template modifications. However, this sort of layout problem can happen when sidebar (or center column) content is too wide, for example. Also, this layout problem only seems to affect Internet Explorer 6 - it looks fine in Mozilla Firefox and Safari/Mac.

Good luck,
Blogger Support

IT WORKED!

Thank you Blogger Support!

My picture for "The Iron Chef" was too big. I edited it down to 50% of its original size and voila, my blog is back on track.

~ Proof ~

To prove that even though I am pissed off and in a bad mood, I still have my humor. I will ALWAYS have my humor, and my happiness. If C thinks I am not happy, he can suck on this!




~ ANNOYED ~

Great. My blog format is all screwed up and Blogger Support has not answered me yet. I just posted "~ No Respect ~" and it's not showing up. Neither is the title for my first AudioBlog. Then, that HUGE blank space from the top to the near bottom of my blog is still there.

WTF is going on??

~ No Respect! ~

I was blazing mad today, I still am. I am normally a very easy going person, laid back. Calm. That is why my name is BLISS. However, there is one person on this planet who really rubs me the wrong way. I normally do not publish names, but with him I'll make an exception. I have been silent (publicly) about him for all these years, but not anymore. I am fighting back because he is an unclassy piece of work. My friends, my family all think he is self absorbed loser, and they are right. I cannot believe that it took me years to figure this out, to finally accept him for what he is. I always had love in my heart for him, he completely fooled me. I wasted nearly four years of my life with this bastard. He has placed an extreme amount of stress in my life. I used to love him, very, very deeply, but when I found out that he was leading a double life, had another girlfriend the same time he was with me, you can bet that all of that changed my viewpoint towards him.

All that I write is not made up, no lie. Everything that I state is FACT. If he finds my site and reads this, knowing him with his delusional mind, he will object. He is such a coward he could never come out and admit that he is the bastard that he is. Not do anything to rectify the situation. I cannot even begin to state how laughable he is. The lies that he created, the things he did to me, how could anyone make stuff like this up? Straight out of Jerry Springer he is. I won't even get into his other ex-girlfriend, serious white trash. And no, I do not say that as a cat's meow, it's the truth and I have a number of people who would back my words up. At the time I did not understand it, a 19-year old stripper? But now I completely understand. Both are seriously destructive behavior type people who lie and are completely self absorbed. They belong with each other. Oh wait, he told me that she is pregnant now, and of course, not married. See what I mean? For all I know he could be the Father. Trust me, it would NOT surprise me in the least.

The problem, the stress he has created for me? MONEY and lots of it. Over four years ago he was working on a film project and was in financial trouble. His laser company at the time was not doing as well as it did in the past (this was during the dot com bust). At that time I was making a nice sum of money, was absolutely in love with him, and being the kind soul that I am loaned money to him. $20,000, two separate checks. He also owed me another $5,ooo for some presents that he said he would buy for me (I paid for them) and other various loans of hundreds of dollars that I gave to him. Boy, was I an IDIOT. I will never be able to forgive myself for being taken by a con man. I cannot even BEGIN to list the pain and suffering I have gone through for this jackass and the way he treats me in return? Completely without respect. This is the thanks I get. He has laughed in my face, flipped me off, told me point blank that he was not going to pay me back, countless lies, countless times of "I have your money" and never following through. I ALWAYS have to ask him for money, he never, ever offers it to me on his own.

Today was no exception. I was so mad at him for failing to transfer funds into my account, yet again. He told me last week he would do it. He did not. I contacted him several other times, and he still didn't do it. Now, supposedly he is 100 miles deep in the Mojave Desert. Do I believe any of this? Absolutely not. It's always about HIM. Todd first.
TODD ROY. Liar extraordinaire. He tells me on occasion when he is feeling God knows what, that he is "sorry and that he understands what it feels like".

YEAH RIGHT! SAVE IT YOU LIAR!

You don't believe me folks? I have the Instant Messages. I am sure he has tons and tons of mine screaming my head off. I have a signed contract from him promising my money to be paid in full LAST YEAR. To date, the payment that I have received? It probably totals less than $5,000. This is over a span of going on five years! I was "supposed" to be paid back ONE MONTH later for this loan, that is why I did it. I was assured this. I simply cannot keep my cool with him anymore, there is only so much a person can take. I do NOT deserve this!!!

After knowing him for so many years and knowing that he lies like no one I have ever known (he is completely pathological), he can sit there and seriously tell me these things with a straight face. I so do not believe him anymore. NOTHING that he says impresses me nor nothing that he says I believe. Bottom line? PAY ME BACK IN FULL, then I will believe whatever you have to say.

All I have to say is this.....karma is a BITCH!

p.s. He actually bought a half million dollar house while he still owed me money. GUTSY isn't he? He also co-signed a loan for a car for his white trash girlfriend, and Lord only knows what else he bought her with MY money. The house has since foreclosed and he went bankrupt. Now he is trying to tell me that if I sue him he is protected by the bankruptcy. NICE OF HIM HUH? He was kind enough to tell me today after I raged at him that I was "worse than AmEx". AmEx never LOVED him. My jaw is clinched tight.

p.p.s. Any lawyers out there? Any advice you can give me? When I get my job, the first thing on my To Do List is to SUE his ass off. I will take everything that he owns and I bet at that time he'll sit back and wonder why is this happening to HIM. Pathetic.

Wednesday, August 04, 2004

~ Come A Little Closer, Closer ~

this is an audio post - click to play

~ SAW ~

I spent the past two hours reading other blogs on Blogger. So far, I am not impressed. Way too many, and way too many from young writers. Can you even read what they type with the "bz" and "haz" type of writing. Annoying. Ah well, I suppose writing one's interest at whatever age is a good thing. Better to create than be destructive and take drugs.

I just feel rather alone. I recently turned 37 (my birthday is July 12th), but look like I am in my 20's. Offline, I attract young men. Online, I attract men older than me. I've already been in a relationship with a man 14 years older than me (when I was in my early 20's). I do believe that caused me to be in the situation I am today. Perhaps one day I will blog about it. Do I have regrets? Yes, I do. But at the same time I don't. It (the experience) has made me who I am today.

Back to what I originally wanted to blog about. I was reading another blog (sorry to the blogger, I do not remember your blog otherwise I would have credited you) and he had a link to this movie: SAW. Mucho scary movie and I love scary movies! Best yet? CARY ELWES! Now, I am not usually star-struck nor have movie star crushes, but I have had a crush on Cary Elwes ever since THE PRINCESS BRIDE came out. He basically has been in crap movies since and has gained weight, but I don't care, Cary rocks! He can "as he wishes me" anytime!


Why is Michael Shanks AND Cary Elwes married when they belong to me?


Another crush of mine? Michael Shanks from Stargate: SG 1. Oh, that is a story in itself. So much to blog about, so little time. Well, in my case I do have time (I am currently unemployed), I am just lazy in putting my thoughts down on e-paper. Admittedly though, with this blog, I am doing MUCH better than my previous. Angell should be proud of me.


Poor Cary, he forgot to call me so I had to chain him up.



"SAW"

Synopsis: Adam (Leigh Whannell) suddenly wakes to find himself chained to a rusty pipe. Chained to the opposite side of the room is another bewildered captive, Dr. Lawrence Gordon (Cary Elwes). Between them is a dead man lying in a pool of blood, holding a .38 in his hand. Neither man knows why he has been abducted. Their only chance is to work together, decipher the clues, and hope that the "Jigsaw" killer has given them enough time before they are forced to kill each other.